This was something of a relief to read, thank you for sharing so openly Lauren.
For me, writing feels agonising at times, and I think this is why I’d avoided completely claiming the writer in me for most of my life, and only having short seasons of writing with many years of winter in between!
But now that I’m utterly devoted to writing and publishing weekly, I recognise why I had a subtle background staleness ever present in my life before this.
Writing is my richness and even though sometimes agonising it fulfills me, probably more than anything else.
Oh these words.... 'writing feels agonising at times'... have really landed for me. I think for so long I have thought that the discomfort meant that I shouldn't be writing - but I now realise that of course this is because the practice of writing is stretching my edges and showing me parts of myself that can only be unveiled by showing up to the page... ooof... it is such a journey. Thank you so much for sharing this with me lovely - it integrated a piece I hadn't quite seen! xxx
I’m so taken with how the ideas of “I should,” “I thought,” “I hope,” “I want” operate in our writing and writing practice. It’s been a lot of work for me to lean in to letting the act of writing light the way rather than trying to force own will that comes from my own expectations. I’m finding that a little bit of wander is where the magic comes. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Oh yes - a pure transmission of words rather than the expectations of what it 'should' look like. Something I am definitely leaning on - and actually interestingly as I have established myself more and more here in this space I have noticed those expectations creeping in more and more. It is definitely a practice to stay with the creative essence and I love the idea of a little bit of wonder. Thank you so much for your comment. x
Thank you for coming back to this space and sharing so honestly. I haven’t had much of a chance to write this week and I feel the difference, so much. My husband says feels a difference in me too when I don’t write.
Ahhh I loved reading your words again Lauren, I love how you give us such insight that it feels like we are there with you. I deeply relate to how you have missed the process of writing — I felt that too when I took a bit of time out at the end of last year. It was quite an unexpected feeling of needing to reconnect on the page and with others through writing. It is where I feel drawn to more than anywhere else at the moment. I love the sound of all of the beautiful things you have been working on and of course it is a joy to co-create with you xx
I agree - if I could only be in one place it would be here!!! Although I also am starting to enjoy the connection on IG again a little -but perhaps that is because I am in my inner spring!! Thank you for receiving my words so lovingly after my pause. xxx
Relate so much to this as always, Lauren. Writing is so important to me but always feels like it’s the first thing to go when I’m busy. Something I too am grappling with this week.
Also love that the girls are interacting. It’s those magic moments when they get on that keep me going with my two.
I have grappled with this because right now writing does not pay me in the same way my other work does - and so therefore I 'should' not prioritise it. And yet if I don't - then actually my creativity feels stuck in other areas of my work too. So the nourishment it brings me is worth the squeezing it in to the edges around the girls and the other projects - even if sometimes I feel a little chaotic in doing it!!
Oh gosh - honestly seeing them together has been the glimmers I have needed over the last few weeks.
Oh I felt you on this. Since I have started regularly writing again both journaling and substacking I have noticed such a difference in myself and my moods. When I haven’t made the time to write I carry around an agitation until I get the chance to sort out my thoughts on paper. Powerful medicine indeed.
Agitation... that is such a good word to describe it - I have felt it for weeks and didn't realise it was because I was missing this practice until I started again and realised how much more settled I felt in my whole being. It has been a really interesting experience to witness in myself, at least now I know that I really do have to prioritise it for my own wellbeing. Thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts. xxx
How much I can relate! Writing is my new go-to tool for so many things, thank you for putting the 2 words "medicine" and "writing" together! It makes so much sense to me.
Oh such beautiful words Lauren. I love how you compare writing with taking nutrients and vitamins, and feeling depleted without. I found myself relating to this without realising I’d been feeling the same way. Thank you for finding the words that my soul needed to hear today. Welcome back 🙏🏻💗
I honestly didn't realise it until I started writing again... I thought I 'needed' to step away from it but actually it is the thing that has tethered me to my heart and soul all along. Thank you so much for reading and receiving and holding my words so lovingly. xxx
This was something of a relief to read, thank you for sharing so openly Lauren.
For me, writing feels agonising at times, and I think this is why I’d avoided completely claiming the writer in me for most of my life, and only having short seasons of writing with many years of winter in between!
But now that I’m utterly devoted to writing and publishing weekly, I recognise why I had a subtle background staleness ever present in my life before this.
Writing is my richness and even though sometimes agonising it fulfills me, probably more than anything else.
Oh these words.... 'writing feels agonising at times'... have really landed for me. I think for so long I have thought that the discomfort meant that I shouldn't be writing - but I now realise that of course this is because the practice of writing is stretching my edges and showing me parts of myself that can only be unveiled by showing up to the page... ooof... it is such a journey. Thank you so much for sharing this with me lovely - it integrated a piece I hadn't quite seen! xxx
Yes! It’s kinda like shadow work! That’s how I see it, when it feels that way!
Absolutely. Deep and dark and murky at times… but enlightening all the same! X
I’m so taken with how the ideas of “I should,” “I thought,” “I hope,” “I want” operate in our writing and writing practice. It’s been a lot of work for me to lean in to letting the act of writing light the way rather than trying to force own will that comes from my own expectations. I’m finding that a little bit of wander is where the magic comes. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Oh yes - a pure transmission of words rather than the expectations of what it 'should' look like. Something I am definitely leaning on - and actually interestingly as I have established myself more and more here in this space I have noticed those expectations creeping in more and more. It is definitely a practice to stay with the creative essence and I love the idea of a little bit of wonder. Thank you so much for your comment. x
Wonderful and honest words Lauren, I can see myself in a lot what you write about ✨🤍
Thank you for reading, I’m happy to be able to hold that mirror up through the words. It truly is a balm. Xx
Thank you for coming back to this space and sharing so honestly. I haven’t had much of a chance to write this week and I feel the difference, so much. My husband says feels a difference in me too when I don’t write.
It is a joy to be back - and I suspect my husband also has noticed a difference in me this week. Thank you for welcoming me home :-) xx
Ahhh I loved reading your words again Lauren, I love how you give us such insight that it feels like we are there with you. I deeply relate to how you have missed the process of writing — I felt that too when I took a bit of time out at the end of last year. It was quite an unexpected feeling of needing to reconnect on the page and with others through writing. It is where I feel drawn to more than anywhere else at the moment. I love the sound of all of the beautiful things you have been working on and of course it is a joy to co-create with you xx
I agree - if I could only be in one place it would be here!!! Although I also am starting to enjoy the connection on IG again a little -but perhaps that is because I am in my inner spring!! Thank you for receiving my words so lovingly after my pause. xxx
Relate so much to this as always, Lauren. Writing is so important to me but always feels like it’s the first thing to go when I’m busy. Something I too am grappling with this week.
Also love that the girls are interacting. It’s those magic moments when they get on that keep me going with my two.
Welcome back! X
I have grappled with this because right now writing does not pay me in the same way my other work does - and so therefore I 'should' not prioritise it. And yet if I don't - then actually my creativity feels stuck in other areas of my work too. So the nourishment it brings me is worth the squeezing it in to the edges around the girls and the other projects - even if sometimes I feel a little chaotic in doing it!!
Oh gosh - honestly seeing them together has been the glimmers I have needed over the last few weeks.
Thank you - it feels really good to be back xxx
Yes exactly this! ❤️
Oh I felt you on this. Since I have started regularly writing again both journaling and substacking I have noticed such a difference in myself and my moods. When I haven’t made the time to write I carry around an agitation until I get the chance to sort out my thoughts on paper. Powerful medicine indeed.
Agitation... that is such a good word to describe it - I have felt it for weeks and didn't realise it was because I was missing this practice until I started again and realised how much more settled I felt in my whole being. It has been a really interesting experience to witness in myself, at least now I know that I really do have to prioritise it for my own wellbeing. Thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts. xxx
Yes! For me writing is self care! 💛
Absolutely… deeper maybe even than self care… self tending xxx
Self Tending! I love that. So much deeper.
How much I can relate! Writing is my new go-to tool for so many things, thank you for putting the 2 words "medicine" and "writing" together! It makes so much sense to me.
Ahh you are welcome - truly writing and medicine just seem to make sense as a pair to me!!! Thank you for your thoughts. xxx
Oooof , all the feels! This is beautiful, and echoes so deep inside me. Thanks for writing your truth 🤎
Thank you so much for reading and receiving my truth. xx
Oh such beautiful words Lauren. I love how you compare writing with taking nutrients and vitamins, and feeling depleted without. I found myself relating to this without realising I’d been feeling the same way. Thank you for finding the words that my soul needed to hear today. Welcome back 🙏🏻💗
I honestly didn't realise it until I started writing again... I thought I 'needed' to step away from it but actually it is the thing that has tethered me to my heart and soul all along. Thank you so much for reading and receiving and holding my words so lovingly. xxx
Love this Lauren ❤️
Thank you lovely one. xx