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Aria's avatar

This post resonated so deeply. Thank you. I have a 2 and 5 year old as well. In the last 6 months I have begun to regularly dance, row, swim, quilt, knit, meditate. Of course only in short bursts and intermittently depending on the week, but the reclaiming of self has made me feel whole again. The strange part for me is feeling this split: that as I move more into my reclamation of self I will be "missing out" on the finite years of their early childhood. And yet, I know this nourishment of the activities that bring me wholeness, will make me a better and more well rounded mother.

Then there is the looming pressure of the culturally pervasive motherhood perfection complex asking "will you have a 3rd"? It can make it so hard to feel clarity on whether we feel complete in our early motherhood journey, or must we always want more? The thought of having a 3rd feels terrifying on so many levels, and yet I feel like this question looms daily. It seems like yet another cultural failure to instill this pressure and not provide a container to help shepherd women from their early matrescence into their next stage of motherhood and reclamation of self.

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I’ve been hanging out for my partner to finish work for Christmas so I can indulge in some of your words, it’s the first long break he’s had since our daughter arrived & 2 days in I can feel how much my NS has been desperately needing this level of rest & rejuvenation 🤍

I’m 8 months postpartum with our second & I feel like we’ve just come out of a 3 month haze of sleep deprivation which had me feeling beyond numb on so many days I’ve lost count. Days I just felt too numb & too exhausted to play with my eldest, riddled with guilt. So angry & frustrated at this system we have all found ourselves in, a system I believe is so afraid of the power of the Mother it is hell bent on suppressing & belittling us all. But in my heart when I look into the eyes of my children I know we will rise, we will rise together, we are rising once more 🌹🔥

Thank you for your heartfelt shares as always Lauren, the part about moisturising it’s beautiful & deeply symbolic. I’ve been keeping a self care diary where I write at least 3 self care things in it I do a day, on the days I’m by myself with children it’s a lifeline. I’ve been taking myself to the sauna, I had my eyebrows done yesterday & I rubbed my body with oil all over today. These small acts of kindness have been so necessary since going from one to two souls in our family, if anything I’ve needed to step away more this time round & earlier on than with our son ✨✨ Two years was pivotal for me last time too, I look up reformer Pilates around that time which I love! I used to be a gym junkie before our babies but that seems like a lifetime ago now. Sending love always Rach xxx

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