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Gary Coulton's avatar

Hi Lauren,

The algorithm gods brought your Note to my attention and now your post. I love this kind of serendipity.

What a beautifully written open hearted piece. Thank you for your generosity of spirit.

I suspect you knew when writing this that many other deep thinkers shared your tendency towards anxiety. I was one such.

After decades of looking for relief I realised the most deep seated anxiety came from an unconscious fear of my death. I looked at this overcame it. Much, though not all, of my anxiety has diminished.

I’m not saying this is universal but it seems I lived in a constant state of grief for myself. The ultimate FOMO.

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Alexander Lovell, PhD's avatar

Your perspective on the paradox of mental health struggles—feeling exhausted but knowing change is needed—is so accurate. It's like being stuck in quicksand, the more you struggle, the deeper you sink. You mentioned that your past few years appeared expansive, yet there was this undercurrent of fear and not being "enough." This duality is something I think many of us experience. We achieve, we create, we build, but internally, there's this voice questioning our worthiness. It's a strange dance of outer success and inner turmoil. I love that you're acknowledging it, showing that even with "success," the human experience can be deeply complex. It's a reminder that progress isn't linear; it's a messy, beautiful, and often contradictory journey.

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